aixin

2009-08-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Kaixin, my niece's birthday is round the corner ! :D She is turning ONE, this coming Monday. Her parents, which are my cousins, are celebrating her birthday this Saturday. I think she would cry as all her aunts, uncles, grandaunts etc will be there to cuddle her, we would probably be strangers to her except for a few of my aunts. I don't think she will remember her birthday party, she is still so young! I hope she will be fine and healthy. That's the most important thing.

I remember the night that she was borned last year was the day I had my first date. Hahaha. This means that I haven't seen Jack Tan for almost a year. We sent him off last year, at the airport, in tears. I hope he is doing well. Time flies. When I carried her last year, she was just a tiny baby. Now she is one.

Anyway, prelims are going to be over soon ~ :D yay. I can heave a sigh of relief for a while. For a while only. I hope I do well, cause several papers are quite tough to me.

I am so happy, I have completed my HP games :D hahaha ~ 2 of them, the bubble one and the crosspix. Oh man, the crosspix is really challenging. I am so proud of myself. HAHA. I better stop, its addictive, glad that I am not interested in the soccer game and the jumping-dino game which are left untouched. lol.

Anyway, I can't stand certain people who are so proud, boastful and so loud. Why are they so full of themselves? Yes, they MAY have something to flaunt, but do they need to show off? If you are really THAT good, everyone will regconise your talent, even if you don't announce it to the whole WORLD. Besides, these people aren't really THAT successful or great -.-, they just think they are. Senseless people. This just shows how shallow they are.

2009-08-17T04:20:00.000-07:00

Hello.

The weather is killing me. As the temperature increases, the number of times I bathe increase linearly or non linearly. Anyhow! It just increases. I deleted my old template. Can't be bothered anymore with fanciful designs. Lol.

My attention is now shifted to my preliums and my o lvl grade for Chinese. Oh man. I don't want to get it back. You know how embarrassing it is to get a B3 or B4 or c5 ... among the sea A1s. Sigh, someone has to be the poor thing, and I have to be that someone.

Ah well, I have never felt so relieved after examinations. English, Social Studies, Amath are over. Amath was okay for me. I think I will do better than before. SS, I don't dare to say much, I studied Venice and D&D and they came out. Thankfully, if not I would have been crying in my classroom.

Tomorrow is Emath. Lalalala.

2009-07-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

Hello, today Dionne wanted to have a haircut so she went to Yew Tee but it was on fire. Haha, and she was whining about it. Lol, Mildred.

Anyway, I'm rather excited to the trip to the anatomy museum tomorrow, haha. :D

Yesterday, after stepping down we (Secondary 4 Guides) went to Lot 1 to dine and MingXian made it there (: The restaurant's service was horrible! Okay, not the attitude, cause the man who served us patiently recorded around 15 different and misleading orders down with a smile and a waitress helped us to take photos hahaha ~. However, they mixed several orders up and I think they even charged us 2 dollars more(maybe we foot the bill with too many coins and notes, thus they aren't able to count the literal heap of money properly) ! I think they are really unprofessional, it gives me second thoughts of dining there again. Besides, the time they took to serve us was as fast as a snail's pace -.- ah well.
This was how we celebrated? our ROD.
Our handover ceremony wasn't as memorable as last year's batch, sadly.

I was really tired after I got home yesterday, stupidly I took at nap this afternoon, now I can't fall asleep. Sleeping pills please D:

And someone please tell me why I have been receiving SpeedDate emails DAILY ! ARGHS. I didn't even sign up for any DATING SESSION ONLINE OR SHIT. AND I WILL RECEIVE AT LEAST ONE EMAIL A DAY !

2009-07-28T07:28:00.001-07:00

who would know if i was just lying through my teeth, only i will know. im sorry i have to, i dont want any more unhappiness. 1, 0, 6

2009-07-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

Hello (:

Yesterday, we were supposed to have our ROD ceremony. haha. Finally. However, the seniors said that the Secondary 3s were already tired and their energy were drained due to the NDP rehearsal, in addition, we didn't have enough time to do a proper and decent ceremony. Hence we have to postpone it even though we were all prepped up for it. A handful of the PLC cried. Hmm, maybe I'm glad that we had a last gathering together. It isn't very nice to think of the fact that I am parting with my friends soon.

Haha. That Saturday or Sunday, Si Ying sent me an sms, "Aixin, I miss you." Haha, I thought who was that. I was rather surprised by that. (: We will go out together someday, with the ever busy Qianni. Hope we get the chance to.

I remembered I knew SY from the drama workshop. The thick-skinned one hahaha ~ (: Then, I sat with QN, the one who spoke really fast, she was the one who trained my ears.

However the first few people that I knew when I first stepped in to BPGHS was Shuyang then Dionne. lol. Time flies and Dionne said she is stuck with me for four years. Haha. Too bad long-distant cousin.

Remember our NY plan ~

2009-07-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

thanks for the message you sent.

2009-07-16T08:30:00.001-07:00

1 year

2009-07-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's hard when you are stuck inbetween.
It's hard to choose when asked for an answer or a choice.
Can anyone stand in my position?
I doubt they will do so.

Why do people have to be so crude with their words?
Even if they are my friends. Don't they know such comments
will hurt me? It's just that I don't appear to be affected,
I take every single comment into heart.
Don't they know that even though the comments are not
targeted at me, I still feel the pinch too?

I know sometimes it is because of what I said that
triggered them to comment about things.
Have they thought of how I would feel?
I feel really upset. I really regret saying things or
even striking a simple conversation after hearing
those nasty words. What can I do?
I can only choose to swallow them;
no matter how acrid they taste like.

When I want to clarify certain things,
sometimes it's too late. They will steorotype
and end of with their conclusion, when I am
the party directly involved. They will think
that I am trying to save something..

I would not tell anyone what they have said.
I don't want to hurt another party.
I feel really guilty since I started the conversation.
Is it my fault that I caused someone to be bad mouthed?

Forgive me.

- If everyone would think before they speak or act.

***

Reap what you sow.
Is this phrase true.
I really doubt so..

Why even after you have put in so much effort,
your plant doesn't bear fruits.
Wrong method?

Can someone teach me then..

***

Hope my little niece is fine.
(:

2009-06-04T04:30:00.000-07:00

Is it worth to struggle just to live?

Maybe.
Today during SS lesson, there was this millipede crawling around. Xihui was the first one to spot it. She told Dionne and I and said that it won't crawl near us. Haha. So we just listened to the factors that led to the fall of Venice.

Later, it moved nearer and nearer to us. Disgusting, how I hate insects. Anyway, it crawled away, since it was distracting us, or probably me quite a bit, I lifted up the chair infront of me and allowed the leg of the chair to smash it. (opps, hehe)

Xihui and Dionne were making noise, complaining why I hit it. -.- Then I didn't bother much and jsut observed the millipede. IT WAS STILL ALIVE. I only managed to smash the lower half of its long, black and yucky body. The other half in which it's head is attached to is still alive and unsmashed :O Oh man.. I had the urged to lift the chair to smash its entire body as I didn't want it to die a long death, why not settle it once and for all. However Kaheng, Dionne and Xihui adviced me not to.

I just watched it. It moved around. Later, it start to twist its upper body round and round. Then I realised what it planned to do.. It planned to twist its body round and round to break its upper body from the lower part of its body which is already smashed.. eww.

It twirled and twirled so many times. I was imagining how painful the process was if I were it. If I were it, I would just choose to rot there and wait for someone to step on me to end my life. I wouldn't try to save myself. When it was twirling, its body accidentally flipped itself upside down, its legs were facing upwards and it couldn't continue turning. However instead of making "my decision", it still continued.

I don't know what really drove it to be so determined. It really appalled me. Even though its just a stupid little incident of a millipede, I think its amazing. Even a millipede has a strong will to live on and even think of creative ideas (I think its considered innovative to think of twisting itself to break free from its "dead" part, at least for a millipede.). Why can't we humans have that strong will to live and think of ideas of how to solve our problems.

In the end, this admirable millipede managed to break free and crawled away from its dead self, limping a little.

2009-05-22T05:56:00.000-07:00

my back is aching.
im worrying about many other more important things.
how..

2009-05-22T04:38:00.001-07:00

i hope you are fine.
take care.
***

thanks for being there for me (:

2009-05-08T03:54:00.000-07:00

3 years ago.

I was in the computer lab and my classmate

Terrence or Zhicong (either one, should be Terrence)

played a prank on me. They pulled my chair back

when I wasn't looking and yes, I fell.

The pain at the end of my spine has been haunting me

now and then since then. Reccently, it worsen.

It was somewhat like Kian Ann's case but for Kian Ann

it was merely an accident. Instead of dislocating my leg,

I hurt my back.

Just now, I went to the chinese doctor to ask her

what is wrong with my spine. She said my

tail bone is broken. Either she push it back forcefully

which will be pain. Or I just live with it.

Of course, she told me about how it would affect me

in future. I don't think I want to type it here.

Nice prank ,TERRENCE LIM YI JIE.

2009-05-07T23:34:00.001-07:00

I'm done with Chinese.

I worked so hard but I didn't do well.

Just because I don't have the foundation.

Isn't that unfair? When I work harder than others?!

HOW IS THAT FAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY

Okay I must calm down.

NO I CAN'T AND THEY WANT US TO GET A1

HELP !
***
Pros and cons..
What can I say?
Half of me wants to give up.
The other pushes me on.
What to do?
Why can't it be smooth sailing?
***
SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO VENT MY ANGER ALL OUT!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

oh man, in Readers' Digest, there was a short article

about a new shop or whatever.

It's for people to throw and smash plates by swinging

them into a wall or anyhow you want.

Isn't that cool, or uncool lol since

its a WASTE OF RESOURCES!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

HOW I WISH THERE IS SUCH THING HERE !

IN SINGAPORE ! or maybe not

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

OR A PLACE FOR ME TO SCREAMMMMMMMMMM

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

***

Off to sleep.

2009-05-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

gone
gone
gone
gone

2009-05-04T02:22:00.000-07:00

I can't believe my teacher humiliates me.

"Don't tell others that I'm your teacher," she said it several times to me.

Do you know how I feel?

I thought you were temperamental cause you were pregnant but NO!

Little did I know that it's just your character!

Yes I know, I'm not good at it but so?

It is not that I haven't tried my best.

Do you know every lesson I would hope that you would not scold me?

I used to cry infront of you when you scolded me and took in all insults.

Yesterday I couldn't take it anymore.

Did you even see the effort I put in?

Do you have to insult me time and again?

Do you have to ask a younger girl who is your student to flaunt her skills to me?

What is your purpose? To prove that she is much better than me?

Yes she may be better, but SO?

You think you are right.

You are just RIDICULOUS.

You are the worst teacher ever.

***

Today during recess, Kian Ann fell and dislocated his knee cap.

I didn't even dare to go near him. I was just utterly worried for him.

We were told not to touch him nor go near him as it may affect him.

In class, the people, they didn't seem to be concerned. People were still laughing

and engaging in their little conversations, maybe they didn't realise?

Only a handful went towards him.

Dionne was worried as well. I asked her to help me pray for him

since.. Im not a christian. Haha. Someone told me before if I'm not a christian,

my prayers wouldn't be answered. So well, I asked Dionne to help me

since it was chinese period and she was in the same class as me.

Really, I hope he will be alright, even though

I'm not his close friend. May god bless you, Kian Ann.

It was a shocking scene. I really wonder if there is such thing called
"compassion" in these people. Or is it fading away in this society?

2009-04-30T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hello,
Thanks for talking to me today Qianni.
I needed it. I hope it won't happen again.

I can't believe you did that. I trusted you.
I didn't like certain things cause I knew it would
end up like this hence I didn't like it.
I thought I could trust you that was why I confined in you.
I thought you saw it coming as well.
I hope you won't say anything to anyone anymore.
It's okay, it is a lesson learnt.

I am confident.

2009-04-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

Why must things turn out this way?

Why things won't go our way?

We can't even have what we want.

Just the basics..

It seems so simple yet so hard to achieve.

I'm sorry.

Now I hope that things won't worsen.

I guess thats the most I can hope for.

I'm very worried for my O levels..

Teachers have high expectations,

some of which I don't think I can fulfil.

They think I can make it and

always ask me not to worry.

Yes, I am a worrywart,

however I know my capabilities.

I will just have to try my best.

When I read the list of things we would do

to cope with stress, pasted at the back of the class.

I realise a handful of us will mask our unhappiness

by laughing or doing something to forget our stress.

Don't you think our lives are similar to F451?

I'm not sure that unthinking society will happen

at the 24th centuary. Maybe earlier.

2012.

If it's really true,

what will I do with my remaining time?

3 years from now. I will be only 19.

Is this the life I want to lead?

I doubt so. What should I do?

I need to lead this life for my future..

10 years down the road?

What if I don't have 10 years?

Won't I be wasting my 3 years doing what

I don't want? I'm tired.

2009-04-03T23:20:00.000-07:00

I guess obstacles are there for us to learn. I must control my temper and to stop complaining. I am considered lucky already. My chinese teacher showed us a powerpoint on how B-I-G we actually are compared to the whole universe, we are nothing actually. Our problems seem even smaller yet we make a big fuss over it.

Sometimes I don't understand why must people do such things..

Why?

2009-04-01T23:48:00.000-07:00

April fools.

Our class collaborated with T2 and P2, we agreed to swoop classes during the second period. Our second period happened to be Mrs Chiu's. We went up to T2's classroom while T2 went to P2 and P2 went to M1. lol.

Then a chinese teacher stepped into our class and we greeted him. He was quite puzzled by the malay students in the chinese class. Qiqi merely explained to the teacher they took chinese, miraculously he bought the story. lol. We were all laughing already.

Shortly after, we saw Mrs Chiu walking pass the classroom we were in and said, " All these are M1 students !" to the teacher. The teacher still didn't know what was happening hence Mrs Chiu explained to him right from the start. He gave us victory sign and left the classroom while we followed suit after greeting him happy april fools.

Haha (: Later Mrs Chiu told us the delay of letting us use the air cons its because some were not functioning hence the school have to buy new ones. Besides the electrical bills will be very costly so.. each student have to pay $50. lol. Some of us guessed if it is an april fools joke. She denied at first, however in the end she smiled her priceless smile and said we are too smart. haha.. Fancy tricking each other.

2009-03-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

hello.

I just came back from a camp in which I had a part to play for in the planning process. It was my maiden time during the planning. It was a good and bad experience. It was really tiring for the pre camp preparation, neglected alot of things. I was closer to my fellow guides mates as well. The process wasn't as simple though.. alot of things to ponder, alot of things to do, alot of things I have learnt. Its finally over. Finally.

The camp was only okay, campers gave me feedback. Some people thanked campstaff in their little booklets. Some people said they were bootlickers. Some said they were nice to even think of the effort we put in. Good enough. Honestly, what's done is done. I don't think I will be in charge of anything like this anymore unless it's against my own will. Let's hope history won't repeat itself.

For the first day, I only slept for an hour together with Mingxian, Brina and Qianni. Talked alot.
I couldn't take it for the second night and I went to sleep. Until now I still have the hangover feeling, my biological clock is messed up..

Sometimes things aren't as simple as they seem.

Until now my hair still smells like it's bbq-ed ):
Ahh I'm tired. I'm going to sleep soon ~ Nights.

2009-03-15T01:49:00.001-07:00

I don't see any point, nor purpose in doing that.
What do you gain? In fact you lose more.
Crazy brainless idiots. Seriously
Acting big, when you are just empty inside.

2009-03-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

Reccently, my ex-classmate apologised to me.
I was puzzled. It had been 2 years back.
I had already long forgotten about this.
What drove him to apologise?
When he apologised, it was heart wretching, I admit.
I was at fault too. It is over. They are now memories.
I can't go back no matter how much I long.
People do learn. People do change..
It's time I do.
*
Also, I do regret doing certain things.
Maybe it will be better if I be the "bad" guy.
When I role played the "good" guy, instead of gaining
anything, I lost alot. Nothing was ever appreciated.
Maybe this was what I gained - A lesson to learn.
*
You said, "The world/reality isn't harsh, it's how you look at it."
Mind over matter.
Hope things go smoothly for you.
Honestly, I admire you.
*
I know. You will give me moral support, thanks.

2009-02-25T03:41:00.000-08:00

I'm getting worried.
I hope I can.
I believe I can.

2009-02-07T05:45:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wish im like you.
wonder how you hang that smile up
even when you are sad.
i owe you chocolates :D
V day is coming ~

2009-02-07T05:37:00.001-08:00

Stupid..

2009-01-24T06:34:00.000-08:00

I wish I can not think so much.
If happiness is so easily gained
it won't be happiness right?
What do I want? Who will support me?
Can I lean on someone?

2009-01-23T07:10:00.000-08:00

I'm thankful for what I have.
Because of today, I won't regret.

Chinese New Year

Hello blog, I know you are dead. I'm here to add some live.

Today we had to go around giving oranges to the residents of block 416. This CIP is called - Operation Orange. Our group had nine people so we took 3 floors. The last few floors. Anyway we went around knocking on doors and ringing doorbells greeting them Happy Chinese New Year and giving them mandarin oranges. It was quite enjoyable as someone will always say 1 2 3 and we will shout the greeting together.

Before the Operation Orange, we had the Chinese New Year concert which is held annually. I thought last year's concert was better. This year's programme and time management can be improved because almost every item was repeated, this situation wasn't seen for the past 3 years in BPGHS. Anyway I have to admit, Long Siang is brave :D I admire his bravery (: \m/
I was singing through the concert and screaming for the people who were performing. Personally I like the CO's performance. Haha. Also we were laughing over some stupid things like the past; when we were Secondary One we threw the oranges, which were from the Lion Dance, around. It made Mr Tan so pissed, haha !, until he threatened us with our Prom Night, if I'm not wrong.

Also, today's weather was TREMENDOUSLY HOT ! Argh ! It was so hot until Irna started the trend of openning her umbrella when we were assembly at the parade square. Slowly, those who had umbrellas started to use them. Our class used newspapers given by Huan Ran, if I'm not wrong, to fan ourselves. HAHA ! :D WHAT A MEMORABLE NEW YEAR CELEBRATION ! Hahaha !

New year resolution, I hope everything can run smoothly, things need not be great, that's what I yearn. Things such as - Camp, my O levels, my personal relations and my health. I hope this is a happier year for me I guess this is the most important thing. I hope everyone around me will be happy as well.

The day before, Jasmin gave us fortune cookies (: Thanks ! Mine fortune says - Do not worry what lies ahead of you. My friends said it is a suitable fortune for me. HAHAHA ! Since I worry alot, I will take note of that.

Okay I will update when I want to jot my memories down.

2008-12-31T23:21:00.000-08:00

Yesterday on msn,
Jianwei was asking me to slap his face,
and he said if he has webcam he will tap his
face to signal me to slap his face.

Then I said if i have webcam I will
just roll my eyes. Jianwei said later
roll until drop out.

Then he said thats my new year resolution.

Guess what -.-
I was bathing once the clock striked 12am
and soap went into my eyes.
Then even at 3 am my eyes was so damn red
even after I washed with the eye wash
a couple of times -.-

GREAT THING TO START WITH !
2009..

2008-12-31T21:48:00.000-08:00

Wenjuan, Sara-Lynn, Jolene and I at Marche Restaurant.

Wenjuan and I. With our lunch.

Beanie's hand -.-

Weiting and I (:

Shaun and I.

Sara-Lynn and I in the arcade.

Chuan an and I

Wenjuan, Me and Jolene eating ice cream at
Takashimaya.

Jolene and I (:

PRIMARY SCH GATHERING

I met Jolene and Wenjuan at 9.50 am that day.
I thought I would be late so I smsed Wenjuan.
Little did I know she was always late, according to Jolene.
HAHAHA !
We met earlier cause Wenjuan wanted to shop
for a school bag, we went to AMK Hub, then
Takashimaya. As, Wenjuan was wearing long sleeves
when it was very hot, Jolene kept making a fuss out
of it. HAHA. Wenjuan just said Vivo is cold ~

Then we made our way to Vivo we were supposed

to reach there by 1 pm. On our way, a guy walked

to us in the train and smiled at us. I was like :O WHO IS THAT?

WHAT DOES HE WANT? Then he said HI.

He was Chuan an -.- He changed too much. Better looking (:

Then hanged around and went to Marche Restaurant.

Ate, went to arcade, went to pet shop and Shaun, Chuan an, Jolene and I

headed for home while Shaun headed to his Badminton BBQ.

Hmm I didn't really enjoy the gathering,

probably because we were sitting at separate tables

while we were dining; and Kyron spouted some rubbish

about Chuan an having a private blog saying

funny things -.- like he can't live with out me -.-

When Chuan an was calling his mum, Lucas

was making some sexual sounds -.- and said he is me.

-.- They have nothing better to do.

We also talked about what happened in the past.

For example, Beanie meditating under the table before PSLE.

LOL. And Beanie falling down with Phillip in a very wrong

position. And Chris Karim's dad owning a condom company

thats why he is a millionare. AHH ~ He is so rich..

And we talked about Nathan, Xinmun and

Weihong (care bear/bird tong chai).

(along the way Jolene kept teasing Wenjuan so
i giggled alot and I slapped my mouth to stop myself
from laughing too loudly in the train and restaurant,
they were laughing at me doing that and told me
at the end of the gathering, my mouth will be swollen hahah ~)

The boys really changed alot haha !

Meet up again someday ! :D

2008-12-25T04:02:00.000-08:00

Haha my presents (:
Thanks mimi, mummy, ah bee, neh mai, brina, wendy, kuanyao.
AND ~ thanks yuwei for the meal at newyork newyork.

My cake bought my parents.

me, siying and qianni

The bears which I told them I loved alot
cause they create some nice sound when
they are shoke. They are from siying and qianni.

The card and the cake qianni and siying gave me (:

LOTUS SOUP ! WOOTS !

Siying knows I love lotus soup
so she cooked the whole pot of it on

christmas eve, and I drank half of the whole pot.

Which is 6 bowls of the above picture (:

Thanks alot siying and qianni (:

HOW I SPENT MY BIRTHDAY ~

hahaha okay its quite a simple and

enjoyable one for me. I woke up at

12pm HHAHA then my father fetched me

to siying's house.

Then siying and I waited for qianni

who was late ): When qianni came

she was asked to guard

me from leaving the room.

Siying then scooped a bowl of lotus soup

for me to drink. After drinking

she bought out the cake that was made

by qianni and her.

Haha thanks for everything ah bee and neh mai (:

Then I went for dinner with my family at swensens

and when I came home there was another cake.

AHHHH ~ IM SO FULL NOW (:

Anyway thanks to :

Aisyah, Jianwei, Pamela, Anna, Samuel, Aijuan, Yuqiong,

Cewen, Mummy, Papa, Jonathan, Xihui, Kuanyao,

Tianji, Zhaokai, Siying, Qianni, Hanxiong, Tianji,

Teena, Chinyee, Yongxiang, Lysah, Kiancheong, Mingxian,

Chongyou, Brina, Sean, Mr Wu, Jianhui, Yinshuen, Wenxi,

Kaycheong, Wenjuan, Zhicong, Qiqi, Longsiang,

Jasmin, Jiawen, Elton, Eunice, Jungang, Nigel, Minghan,

Keith, Hongliang, Youyi, Lucas, Sweeling.

If I left out your name I think my handphone

refuses to receive your message. Sorry ~

Anyway thanks for wishing me (:

Its the thought that counts.

2008-12-23T05:11:00.000-08:00

Its always me. EVERYTHING.
Thanks alot.

2008-12-22T05:23:00.000-08:00

hello ~

I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT SOMETHING !

I remember when I was in secondary one,

my PE teacher was Mrs Ee. Many students

didn't like her, neither did I. hahaa.

However when she left, I missed her a little,

maybe just a little. HAHA I have no idea why.

Anyway, she used to bring us outside the CCK

campus of our old, old school, before it was renovated.

We had to cross a road before we can start jogging round

the HDB blocks. Many of my ex classmates were so impatient

and started to hit the button for the traffic light

to turn green so we could cross.

She would tell us, " If you press, it will reset, and you

guys will have to wait longer." LOL

I ACTUALLY BELIEVED IT ~ HAHAHA

UNTIL NOW ~ OH MAN !

Anyway I don't have a habit of spamming the

traffic light button. I don't like people doing that too.

It gives me a bad impression of the person.

THEN ! THAT DAY ! I was with Qianni,

we saw this guy spamming the button at the

traffic light just outside our school.

I was commenting, so impatient !

hahaha ~ Then I mentioned about

Mrs Ee's lesson. LOL.

Qianni said, " YA I REMEMBER. Its also not true!"

OH MAN ! AHHHHH

I have been tricked for three years.

Hopefully those guys who had been tricked

won't spam on those metal buttons anymore,

because people (or maybe only me) may feel that

they are impatient. Lol.

2008-12-19T20:22:00.000-08:00

"I need to succeed"

Achievers are energetic, optimistic, self-assured, and goal oriented.

How to Get Along with Me

Leave me alone when I am doing my work.
Give me honest, but not unduly critical or judgmental, feedback.
Help me keep my environment harmonious and peaceful.
Don't burden me with negative emotions.
Tell me you like being around me.
Tell me when you're proud of me or my accomplishments.

What I Like About Being a THREE

being optimistic, friendly, and upbeat
providing well for my family
being able to recover quickly from setbacks and
to charge ahead to the next challenge
staying informed, knowing what's going on
being competent and able to get things to work efficiently
being able to motivate people

What's Hard About Being a THREE

having to put up with inefficiency and incompetence
the fear on not being -- or of not being seen as -- successful
comparing myself to people who do things better
struggling to hang on to my success
putting on facades in order to impress people
always being "on." It's exhausting.

THREEs as Children Often

work hard to receive appreciation for their accomplishments
are well liked by other children and by adults
are among the most capable and
responsible children in their class or school
are active in school government and clubs or
are quietly busy working on their own projects

THREEs as Parents

are consistent, dependable, and loyal
struggle between wanting to spend time with
their children and wanting to get more work done
expect their children to be responsible and organized

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages
You liked the test?so S P R E A D I T ! tell everyone!!!
you wanna know MORE?so check out,
what Wikipedia says about your type......
even more you'll find in Google

2008-12-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

TADA ~ Brina's birthday present to me (:

I bought one yellow one for her too !

It's so cute ~ when you ask it a question (or rather when you talk),

it will nod its head or shake it's head.

We were like little kids once we paid for our presents,

we opened it up and we tried it out.

Our first question was , " Am I a Girl Guide? "

IT DIDN'T MOVE AT ALL ! :O

We ran back to the shop to ask for help.

It turned out to be that the batteries were faulty.

The uncle changed Brina's (toy's) batteries first,

after than he said "HELLO!" to the toy.

THE TOY NODDED. hahahah !

We were so delighted. Oh, I think we don't behave

like fifteen year olds ~ However, I'm one more week to FIFTEEN

HAHAHA !

Anyway, our toys worked and we started asking

funny and stupid questions.

Like I will ask, " Am I Brina?", it nodded ~

hahaha ~

It's our annual GIFT EXCHANGE!

Hopefully there will be a next girl exchange (:

2008-12-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

im sorry, i really am.. sigh
im plain hurt.

2008-12-16T04:12:00.000-08:00

qiqi ah, i did the first part already

so im will continue to do the 2nd part (:

1.Who's the person that tagged you?

Qiqi meow

2. Relationship between you and her?

Friends & classmates

3. Three impressions of her?

Gentle ( don't ask me why ) , trust worthy & happy-go-lucky

4. If she becomes your enemy, you will?

Wah, I will pray that it won't ever happen,

but if she really becomes my enemy then i won't talk to her.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?

Eh, I will keep quiet and wait til he starts a conversation

if I'm still a little ( I can't use the word "shy" can I, KC ?! -.-).

If we are close enough already and he likes me then

maybe anything under the sun (:

6. Characteristic i like about myself?

I don't know. Nothing.

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?

Erm. Me being temperamental.

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?

I won't talk to that person, it's a waste of my breath.

9. What do people feel about you?

I don't know, some say I' m crazy, maybe I am at times

but I'm quite sane too. As I said I'm temperamental,

so my mood fluctuates pretty much. Those who know

me better will know that.

10. Your crush

Myself -.-

11. Tag 10 people to do this quiz ( you can don't do)

1. mi mi ~

2. kaycheong

3. dionne

4. jianwei

5. xihui

6. chongyou

7. benjamen

8. agnes

9. pamela

10. qianni

12. If 5 & 7 were together?

I don't think it's possible hehe~

13. who does 5 like?

HAHAHA ! If I type that name, I will be killed.

She loves I DON'T KNOW !? :X

omg and she is my good friend ):

14. What colour does 9 like?

blue and black

15. Say something about 8?

exciting HAHAA !

16. Who is 2?

kaycheong lor. that rofl guy.

17. Talk about 3.

SHARKAYE ~ shy at times (:

especially her muscles.

18. Who is 10's best friend?

siying and i? and her primary sch mates.

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?

number one. right mi mi ?

20. What colour does 4 like?

colour !? omg i don't know eh jianwei.

blue?

21. Is 4 single?

Yes single (: HHEHE

22. Your relationship with 1

married LOL -.-

oh well, complicated right mi mi?

23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?

NO haha ~

24. 9's surname?

chow HAHA :X

25. 7's nickname?

alson? greg?

26. Say something to 8

HI MOST EXCITING GIRL ~

27. Say something to help 9

a few more months and we are free XD

28. Who do i admire?

nah i don't admire anyone

29. Where does 1 live?

on earth.

30. 10 of them know who you like?

31. Say something to 6 when you see her.

HE ISN'T A GIRL ! hahaha ~

I don't talk to him when I see him ~! hahaha

maybe hi?

32. 10's spouse?

Hehehe ~ don't know

2008-12-13T23:32:00.000-08:00

Hello. I haven't been updating much because I have nothing much to update. I have not finished my homework, it's rotting on my table. Why do we have homework since its holiday? Haha. I know its for us to revise and recap but why they won't give us a break ): Ahh never mind, actually, breaks just make me lazier and into the holiday mood. I feel really useless when I'm not doing anything. Nevertheless, since I have slogged for this year, its time I rest.

Eleven days more and I'm turning fifteen finally. Haha. I'm not looking forward to it anyway. I still have things at hand, to keep me busy (even though I really don't feel like doing it, it seems like I don't have a choice).

Not everything goes in our way, when it doesn't, you don't have to do that to others.

2008-12-12T04:11:00.000-08:00

Rules must be followed:
Each blogger must post this rules.
Each blogger must start with ten random facts about themselves.
Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog, ten things and post this rules.
Don't forget to leave them comments telling them they have been tagged and are to read your blog.

1. Eh.. I wasn't really willing to do this quiz because I have done it before. However, Jia Wen threatened me with death, so I have no choice I guess. (:

2. I have nothing interesting about myself.. Well, I'm afraid of dolls. I have no idea why I'm so afraid even though I didn't Chucky when i was younger; maybe they looked too real? In the end, I played with those boyish toys.

3. I hate farewells, even when the person is not very close to me (even saying good bye on a telephone, an sms). I just don't like the feeling of it. It makes me feel empty. I don't really like losing things. Especally, saying good bye to my loved ones.

4. I love to steal my father's pens which are left on his table. Haha. I will steal them and never return. (: I think he knows about it just that he doesn't mention. I have a collection of his ink pens!

5. I think I don't really know myself well ! I am struggling to do this quiz ! :O Hmm, OH YES! I hate music which doesn't sound like music, i regard it as noise.

6. I will be shy if i really don't know a person very well. I need to take a while to get hyped up and start talking to a person. If the person and I are alone, I will talk to that person if he or she shuts up. When I really know someone, its a different story. (:

7. Sometimes, I really regret what I have done. Sigh.

8. I am afraid of death, maybe because I'm a free thinker? Will I go hell? Heaven? Or will I be a wandering spirit? Will I be alone? Do I have to readapt to a completely new surround? I guess no one can tell me. No one with experience can tell me.

9. I like small gestures, I think they mean alot to me. An sms or a tag asking me questions if I'm okay. ( I didn't post my previous post just for fun though -.- )

10. I hope everything goes smoothly in my life, or rather nothing too tedious. Haha. Silly me.

I'm asked to ask 10 more people to do it, I won't though.

2008-12-08T05:05:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry.
I didn't want things to turn out this way too..
I have no one to help me.
No one. I hope you trust me.
I'm sorry.

2008-12-02T00:27:00.000-08:00

I know its a lil out dated..
Im posting about the rod
which was on 27/11, brina's birthday.

Desperate situation..
Unglam lol.

Anyway aisyah qianni jieying and jasmine
came earlier to help me out with the preparations.
Thanks alot !
Qianni was the organiser, i helped her a lil.
We went down to buy ice, the cordial syrup,
a PAIL AND A LADDER.. <>
and all the items we needed for the party.

The pail and the ladder is for storing
the syrup. It looks super unglam, however we are in a
desperate situation. lol.

It looks damn ugly >.<
At first we wanted to scoop,
the cordial into cups and bring them down
so it wont look so ugly,
because that pail is seriously meant
for washing the floor/ or car.
In the end, we just carried that whole pail down
LOL.. Horrible lol.

ahhhhh I was damn worried it will turn out
to be a flop, but in the end it turned out okay (:

Later on we played the games as planned
then we proceeded to eating the pizzas and finally,
cutting the cake. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, prize giving.

im lazy to post the pictures..
http://www.bpghsgirlguides.blogspot.com/
taken by shairah i think.
or nabilah lol.

2008-11-20T01:57:00.000-08:00

1. do you have secrets?

yea i do, not many.

i got upset before cause i dont have many secrets.

hmm, but i think its fine la (:

2. would you fall in love with a guy younger than you?

erm preferably no, but it all depends on fate.

3. do you enjoy going to school?

yea quite.

to crap with dionne and xihui and siying and qianni

hahaha anddd learn fun things lor.

4. what will you do with a billion dollars?

i will buy a pent house.

i will buy a bathtub

i will travel to norway to view the aurora.

i will travel to hawaii with my future husband ? honey moon lolol.

i will travel to japan to see sakura flower.

i will travel to I DONT KNOW ALOTALOT ! lol

i will buy a plot of grass and lie down with erm.. haha.

until its night and we will view the stars.

i will buy a new piano.

i will buy a king sized bed.

i will want my perfect wedding (:

AHHH ITS SO GOOD TO BE RICH

sigh i wanna be rich really ):

5. would you fall in love with your bestfriend's stead

NO. unless that stead is my stead and he is cheating on me.

if not never never neverrrrrr.

6. if you have to choose between your bestfriend or your boyfriend..

hmm bestfriend at least she/he wont leave me bah.

eh what if they are the same person HAHAHA

7. what is the thing you are looking forward now?

i dont know? after o levels hahaha.

8. if the person you secretly like is already attached then?

make myself forget the person.

9. what makes you happy?

ehh after having a long bath in a bathtub

be with the ones i love =)

seeing shooting stars, rainbows and the aurora.

10. what makes you angry?

when things go wrong at the wrong time.

erm alot of things i guess.

11. how will you see yourself in 10 years time.

in a wedding gown (: with my groom.

ahhh happily married (:

12. who is currently the most important ppl to you?

erm family and friends and myself ahah af =)

13. what is the most important thing in your life.

love. from my family my friends my partner.

i guess thats what keeps me going.

14. what is more important? family? career?

family. erm cause love is important in my life lol?

15. whats your favourite colour?

alotalot. yellow & green currently (:

reminds me of kaya and butter hahaha

16. would you give all in a relationship?

yes i will, even though it may not last forever

because i dont want to regret. and i suppose

i cant control myself in that case.

17. if you fall in love with 2 people at the same time , who will you choose.

someone whom i like more?

hahaha.. i dont think it will happen to me.

18. what would you do if your boyfriend 2 timed you.

ehh i will ask him before jumping to conclusions.

and leave him if he is really two-timing.

i cant afford to share my love.

but i may never know cause

i may be hopelessly in love that i will

forgive him?

19. what would you tell the person you like?

if he already knows it then i guess its needless to say anymore

cause im sure he understands how i feel =)

if he doesnt know and im secretly in love..

i will just shut up and keep quiet.

if he likes me then i will confess.

20. list the blabla

im gonna ignore this

2008-11-20T00:40:00.000-08:00

hello..

jianwei i pei fu you

on tuesday we walked from westmall
all the way to jianwei's house -.-
its so damn FARRRRRRRRRRRR
xihui dionne and i were complaining.
then dionne said no wonder he is so thin !
LOL.

in addition xihui was whining about how
ungentlemen they were LOL because
they were walking so far ahead infront of us.
they didnt even stop to wait for us.
in the end they were not in sight anymore
so dionne xihui and i went to walk around
in the park lol.

FINALLYYYYYY
BUT..

jianwei and zhaokai came back looking for us.
FINALLY AFTER SOO LONG
we ARRIVED at his house.
his house layout reminds me of longsiangs house haha
anyway, zk switched on the tv
and watched his hitman reborn
then dionne switched to cartoon network.
and POWERPUFF GIRLS was on !

it was the episode where
bubbles wanted to be mojojojo
xihui and dionne were laughing at me lol.
and his house was like an oven lolol.

jianwei swtiched on his computer
and it took 10 mins to start lolol.
and his capslock button wasnt working.
and it was lagging hahaha..

soo.. we walked AGAIN to zhaokais house.

YAY ZK'S HOUSE !
but..

zk's com and laptop was much faster
so while dionne and zk crapped with samuel on msn
jianwei xihui helped me with the ppt.
later we all got very distracted with other things
i think we all dread proj.
and there was this msn conv -.-
some fake orgy shit.

zk started playing his songs he had in his com
it made me veryveryvery sleepy
and his room made dionne and i feel very sick.
i had a headache even after i left his house.
xihui felt abit giddy. dionne was falling sick.
poor dionne couldnt go for her training today.

zk's room is polluted dont go there.
dionne says : beware ! DONT go his house
LOLOL.

p.s. zhaokai is surprised that we know the songs he has in his computer

2008-11-08T22:32:00.000-08:00

hello

it has been a long time since i have blogged.

anyway.. for the last week i have been late for..

one time..

i asked brina when will the guides meeting commence

she said 2.30PM so when it was 1.15PM i was still at home -.-

until jasmine and jieying called to inform me that

its 1.30PM so i had to rush down..

along the way to school, a guy stopped me

i knew what was going to happen next as i saw him

hold on to a bundle of pens . i was thinking.

"not again.."

but i stopped and listened to him anyway.

he said,

"can i ask you a few questions?"

"yea."

"will you give a second chance to an ex prisoner?"

"yea i will, you are asking me to buy these pens right?

i already bought 3 of them."

"then why don't you buy another one?"

"okay"

lol and i spent 8 bucks on 4 pens..

never mind. eileen commented that

the pens are very expensive lolol..

i agree.

i really dont know how to turn them down >.<

if i turn them down, i will feel bad..

if i dont turn them down, i will be seriously broke.

although it is stated that we do not need

to feel obliged. nvm.

another time.

i walked all the way to the mrt station from my house

when i reached there, i realised i forgot to bring my ezlink.

ahhhhh ~ when i decided to purchase the standard ticket

i realised that it is not worth it -.-

its so expensive :O ! i rather walk home

take my ezlink and i can travel round Singapore

at the student price LOL.

its so good to be a student -.-

yet another time..

i agreed to meet jianwei on MSN

from 8 to 9 pm to discuss about the campfire.

however, i completely forgot about it >.<

ahhh ~ and at 8.30pm i was still in my bathtub

BATHING -.-

i quickly smsed him that i will be online

as soon as possible lol.

oh man >.<>.<

this is the first time of my life

i have been late so many times.

lolollll im normally early ): or punctual lol.

on Friday AGAIN ~

siying and i were eating as MOS.

then we talked alot, about our future lol.

and about the rude guy we saw there -.-

side track ~

we were que-ing up to purchase our food.

a young guy cut in.. as in yes.. cut our que.

both of us looked at him and shifted our glances to

each other. then the lil boy shouted

WHAT?

before he shouted what -.-

i was willing to let him cut the que

since we are at the end of the que.

and perhaps he really didnt know that

he was cutting our que.

then siying said

you cut que.

he said back

YOU WERE THE ONES WHO CUT QUE

:O :O !

and according to siying,

his mother was staring at us

like its our fault ? WTH..

whatever -.-

nowadays kids are turning from bad to worse -.-

okokay.. then we talked and talked

until qianni called siying

and told siying

IM OUTSIDE YOUR HOUSE !

we were shocked LOL and quickly rushed home.

yea late another time.

2008-10-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

today is HALLOWEEN ~
ahh i havent celebrated halloween before ):
no dressup party, no treats or tricks lol
yea today is mrs chiu's birthday
3m1 sang her a birthday song
she just nodded her head and continued to mark
our assignments lolol ~

mdm eio told us
someone went into the email
she specially created to put chemistry notes
and deleted the notes there.
:O wth ~!
mdm eio said that the person very
orh xim LOL which means black heart
um i agree lol.
when mrs chiu heard it she went
aiyoh ~ thats terrible LOL

i really have no idea what to blog about eh lol
paiseh

byebye

2008-10-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

tadaaaaaa the stage.

the table (: of the wedding dinner

all the jie meis/sisters

except teena. she is missing from this picture.

CJ, cassandra (bridesmaid), jennifer, me, rachel and yongxin

all of then are my cousins except

CJ and rachel

jennifer and i take our reflection lol.

i like this picture (:

cassandra and i

cassandra teena benny me CJ jennifer and yongxin

the guy in the middle is nicholas lol

we were pressing our weights on him lol

and he had to hold in this positon for quite long

as most of us brought our cameras except

jennifer

CJ and i

nicholas and i

rachel and i

yongxin and i

see the difference in the number of

white flowers left on our dont-know-whats-that-called?

haha our dont-know-whats-that-called

we wore this since morning until late at night

the rose was already rotting lol.

jennifer and i

teena and i

me (:

the morning dress

the night one

haha the withered flower.

i didnt know being a jie mei is so tiring.

i woke up at 5.30 get prepared and went to the

bride's parents' house to prepare the

digusting SUAN TIAN KU LA

to disturb the groom before he can unveil the bride and kiss her.

btw the bride is my cousin

SUAN - sour plums

TIAN - condensed milk with sugar in the yakult bottle

so it seems like it was yakult.

KU - blended baby bittergourd (my disgusting idea)

LA - curry power and wasabi with bread

anyway the normal chinese wedding ceremony

disturbed the groom, and asked the groom to

sing the bride a song.

he said YUE LIANG DAI BIAO WO DE XIN.

and had to say 10 promises to

her in cantonese + mandarin

anyway later we went to the

groom's parent's house then to their new house

then back to the bride's parent's house.

lalala bathed changed and went to the ballroom

cassandra teena Cj rachel and i helped

out at the reception before the dinner began

haha i felt that the dinner bonded us cousins together.

since we rarely talk. lol.

someone organise an outingg ~~

overnight cycling?

kbox? lolol

2008-10-11T22:29:00.000-07:00

ahh i dont want to shift back to the new school ):

i like the old school
i enjoy looking at the morning sun
which rays shine directly into
our eyes during assembly
cause i can easily stand behind someone
to block the beams of light.
since im short enough lol.
yet i can still feel the warmth.
it looks like heaven (:

i like standing at the second batch
the batch which stands on the second half of
the assembly ground lol
cause we have to tiptoe to see the
pirze presentation.

i enjoy lying on the field with brina
just watching the clouds roll by lol.
also i enjoy pretending that im filming
in an mv, plucking grass and throw them
all over my head and sing stand up for Singapore
when im sitting down lol.

i enjoy sitting in labs
talking to anna and anna will
say she cant believe how i manage
to live until this age LOL.
since im always so careless.
i burnt my hand when i was boiling
some acid LOL during chemistry
i poked my finger accidentally
when i poked the pin through the cork
during physics. and i got a wooden
splinter cause i moved my leg
under the oldold lab table during biology.
and irna applied some cream on my hand
while alfred tried to pluck out the wooden splinter for me
and i started shrieking LOL.
cause i was very afriad.

i like changing under the teacher's table
in class too LOL. because of me alot of ppl
started doing that .. lolol like brina etc.

i also enjoy watching squrriels
scampering past me when i step into school
and see the painted sky.
sometimes its yellow, orange, grey and pink (:

i will remember crazying in the nexus carpark
during cheering competition
and on the temporary stage
and ON THE HOCKEY PITCH
when we received two prizes (:

and how we decorated the 205 black board.
and how we smuggled food back to class in the past.
and how we got scolded lolol.
and how steve caught a huge spider lol.

and i love the sunsets i have seen
while walking from the haven to the gate
and the uncle will wish us a happy weekend
since its always fridays (:

i think in the new school
it will be moree erm.. "high tech"
lol we wont be seeing sunsets, sunrise?
squrriels, no more temporary stages
for special occasions, no more oldold benches
in labortaries to hurt my leg LOL.
sigh ): i will remember them (:

2008-10-11T22:13:00.000-07:00

hello its a long time since i blogged.

cause i am purely lazy. lol.

anyway FRIDAY !

siying and i planned on how to trick qianni

on thursday.. we giggled on the phone

when we were supposed to study physics.

anyway i asked her how to do one question

it seems like she didnt know either lol.

in the end , we flipped through the textbook

and laughed at the pictures.

conclusion - we are too stressed..

anyway, i was the director LOL

and siying was the actor -.=

i told her to pretend that she had a stain

on her FAVOURITE tshirt

and act sad.. when we met qianni later on.

then according to plan,

we went to qianni's house

to wash her "stain" in her bathroom

but actually in the toilet,

we were wetting her new towel

(the towel is her birthday present)

and we emerged out of her toilet

apologising to qianni that

we didnt bring any towel

so we used your birthday present

to wipe off the ''stain".

qianni la, act cool shit -.=

she just laughed and hit us.

then she took the towel to hang it

and said thank you.

SHE DIDNT SEEM LIKE SHE LIKE IT LA -.=

she act cool :P

i know she loves that towel alot

since she loves her RILAKKUMA.

or how you spell it.

REVERSE -.=

we were supposed to trick her.

qianni said when you all said

you want to come to my house

i felt that something was amiss already.

then during the time we were in her house

siying and i were complaining and complaining

cause her house is just like an OVEN -.=

so hot i dont know how she can live in there

i almost melted.. lol..

she said

you all wanted to trick me

i think in the end you all trick yourself la !

since my house so hot -.=

ya la ya la i know you are happy living in your

WARM & HOT & smexxy? house.

later we dined in ajisen lol

and we went home lol.

2008-10-01T00:57:00.000-07:00

hello ~

ahhhhhhh

pimples are emerging

due to exam stress >.<

im tiredddddddddddd.

i dont want to study.

pointless.

i dont know how people can manage

to squeeze 8 subjects or even 9 subjects

in their tiny brain which is the size of 2 fists

why they so power, unfair >.<

i realised my current ambition has

nothing to do with all these subjects

nothing to do with sciences or maths

or social studies or even literature

a senior asked me

THEN YOU TAKE TRIPLE SCIENCE FOR WHAT

ya lor, i also dont know i take for what.

for security i suppose..

in case i want to go into a JC.

in case i want to work in some science faculty.

then i have a wider range of choices

if i do well.

people always say follow your heart

and now what.

can i follow my heart?

do i have a choice?

get a1s for all the subjects for?

its not like ALL the subjects are applicable

in my life in future.

okay im procrastinating -.=

ignore me.. off to sleep.

bye.

2008-09-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

hello !

haha my blog is dead.

so im here to save it (:

d****e was angry over something i said

it was meant to be a joke..

her anger wasnt real also of course

d****e asked me not to blog this

as she wanted her reputation HAHA -.=

dont worry dionne i didnt type your name

see i censored it (:

she folded her arms.

gave and angry face.

laid her head on the table.

i turned to my READERS' DIGEST

cause i knew she wanted me to react..

she probably wanted me to

shake her arm and beg for forgivness.

i cant be bothered LOL

im not that kind of person who will do that.

i just read on the story (:

i even told xihui that story was very nice LOL.

then she hit me on my thigh

EH ! WHY YOU NEVER APOLOGISE !?

IM ANGRY EH HAHAHAHHAHA !

*angry like real..angry still can laugh !?*

YOU SHOULD TOUCH MY HAND

AND SAY SORRY

WAHLAO YOU JUST SIT DOWN THERE

DO NOTHING..

HAHAHAHAHAH !!!!!!!

SORRY I KNEW YOU EXPECTED THAT.

ALL THE MORE I DONT WANT TO DO THAT

IM NOT THAT KIND OF whiny PERSON (:

not like you

*d****e carried on hitting me*

2008-09-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

i didnt know its so tiring.
im constrained cause of this.
i want to break free but i cant.

2008-09-13T03:15:00.000-07:00

i asked engkiat how he treats a problem.
he asked why i asked him..
i told him cause he seems very happy-go-lucky.
he said cause im a perfectionist..
im making my life lousy..

hmm. perfectionist..
he said, make mistake also cannot..
that i beg to differ laa -.=
thats too kua zhang
i allow mistakes to be made.
i just put in my best to everything i do
if not i will choose not to do it bah..
actually come to think of it..

my everything means
- selective issues
some issues i see no point in working hard
so i just fumble through lol.
which those issues which i deem
as important, i will get a lil irritated
when i dont get things right

due to that i have lost certain things..
relationship, post, and many more.
i dont want to lose more..

maybe engkiat is right..
thanks ek.

2008-09-12T05:47:00.000-07:00

problematic xihui

her birthday is approaching

dionne and i are draining out our

brain juices just to think of what

to buy for her..

notice the colour of the words.

we quarrelled during social studies lessons

and they claimed that im the whiniest

among them.. so they said im BUBBLES

while dionne is the most boyish.

therefore she is BUTTERCUP.

then its left with xihui BLOSSOM

PPG !

this morning i asked her,

"what do you want?"

"eyuh where got people ask de,

dont buy la! "

then she ran away.

i told dionne and we started laughing at her.

"what you want?!"

"if you dont say i will plan for you"

"wahlao aixin's plan very guai lan one

she told me already"

"HAHAHA !"

"HAR !"

we asked her if she is celebrating

her birthday. then she told us

she isnt free on what day and what day

then we said

" i know you dont want to celebrate with us la.

dont need to go one round just to

derive at this luh. the hurt is the same.

jus say so okay ! "

" EH DONT ANYHOW SAY LUH ! "

" harnor you got your animal fammmm"

" and BOBBY TOO !"

LOLOLOL !

2008-09-09T05:37:00.000-07:00

hello ~

school reopens.

lessons. lessons. more lessons.

same routine haha nothing special.

result slip.

i was my turn to get back my

result slip. mr seow said

'' i dont know how to praise your grades.

you are randomly scoring

As for random subjects.

you are capable of scoring well

its just that there is no consistency. "

LOL opps.

" you mean my amath?"

i did quite badly for it.

" basing on your random grades

you will top in amaths la? "

" huh no la -.= ''

haha never mind im happy enough

to get below 15 points for my L1R5 (:

and i got back my piano results,

i passed (:

伤心也是一天，快乐也是一天，不如快乐地过一天。

2008-09-04T21:25:00.000-07:00

hello (:

yesterday something happened,
im glad jieying jasmine eunice
and eugene helped though (:
thanks (:
appreciated.

yea maybe its my fault.
maybe.
not entirely.

then ~~
even after that happened.
i still had to go shopping with
my mum cause i dont have much time luh.
i bought my dress and shoes
for my cousin's wedding (:
haha i spent a total of 170 bucks >.<
129 bucks for the night dress.
40 bucks for my shoes.
thats alot :X
besides i bought another dress
which is pink and it costs 90 bucks :C
i have no choice..
im the jiemei maa..

then ~~
i went to my cousins house
another one lolol.
to look at her BABY XD
my 3rd aunt and cousins were there too (:

hahaaa thats about it -.=
i dont have to mood to blog.

anyway if you want to
assume & jump to conclusions,
no doubt why little things can make you upset.

2008-09-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

one year.
so many things happened.
just a year.
mr tan left for australia.
205 is split into different classes.
some friends slowly fade into aquintances.
some aquintances become close friends.
some blood-sucking problems
which leeches my energy away are gone
yet new problems emerges.
surprises still occur.
tears smile laughter remains.
i should be happy with life.
things and people come and go.
if i can grasp them tight
and stop the time, how nice
will it be (:
if only IFs can turn to REALITY.
if only..

2008-09-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

when i want to let go
i just cannot.
it has become a habit to cling on.
im clinging on to the habit then.
im just worried i wont be strong
enough to fight those obsticles.
it worries me -
what if one day everything just
disappears like that?
what would i do?
what can i do?
what will i be?
everything is so fragile.
the more i get, the more i long.
if it disappears, the more i lose.

but i believe my choice is right
to walk this path (:
make me keep believing okay?

2008-09-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

we are aunties !

and we are so glad to announce that -

we have a niece ! :D

she still doesnt have a name yet.

she is so fragile lol and nice to carry.

i was so excited upon seeing her

i LOVE babies XD

i didnt want to stop carrying her

until it was time for her to drink milk.

she was born yesterday (:

so when she is my age 15 years down the road

i will be 30 :O

thats o-l-d

2008-08-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

heyyyyy last pic of the day !

LOL (: i like it (:

2008-08-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

qianni and i

siying and i

YAY ! i look like a bunny !

anna (: and alfred at the back

kian scholar? LOL.

qixiang and kian

gheying in the MRT lolololl.

when things dont go in our way

we must still carry on (:

2008-08-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

hanxiong alson fengyu jacktan me

zhicong and sean

jack tan and i

zhicong and jack tan

yea jack tan is back, for a few days.

even though its only a few days he

is complaining how noisy Singapore is.

yea, as usual lol.

shuyang ran to me telling me that

jacktan is outside the canteen

i ran over immediately to say hi.

and started crying. cause i missed him.

shuyang kept asking me to calm down

in vain LOL. xihui kept laughing at shuyang

cause she could calm me down.

mr tan asked, "why are you crying?"

"cause i miss you"

"people miss me, see me, and feel happy,

you? cry?"

LOL.

he said he will only be back for our

wedding dinners. so we must send him

invitations via FACEBOOK -.=

(its so informal) and he will TRY

to attend LOL.

i said okay then i will get married as soon

as possible so you will come back soon.

i will marry tml ! LOL

he said huh you have someone in mind already?

no. LOL.

mr seow and his card (:

" i hope someone didnt lose too much sleep on this "

" not really "

" if there is a sabo award, i will nominate you de "

" WHY? ''

" CAUSE YOU ALWAYS HAVE MANY WEIRD IDEAS WHAT "

" hahaha ! "

haha janelle !

LOL.

finally (:

qiqi xihui and i

haha stuff the balloon in our shirts.

HAHA anna's leg and qixiang's *ahhem*

LOL omg.. this photo.

its not meant to be like that luh

its cause the boys were kicking anna

and blocking our view so i raised my leg and -.=

bobby's =.=

huiying youyi jiewei janelle me and anna (:

hahah spastic..

emo-ing corner.

MORE ABOUT THE CARD ~~

which of the following do you prefer?

option a)

liang jing ru/ fish leong,

"choose me la i am so pretty see"

"hmph you dont choose me also never mind,

i will go for him ! muahahaha you will regret !"

option b)

3m1 vivace

" see you look so happy with us !"

*points there*

" ya lor, so choose who?"

*choose a) and die*

LOL.. all F9s except the subjects

he teaches us (:

physics emath and cme.

haha clearer view.

nice ma? lolol its made by me (:

anyway HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY !

do take care mr tan , if you dont come back

often and soon enough. i will marry, divorce,

marry, divorce etcetc. so you will have

to attend my many WEDDINGS (:

2008-08-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

can you stop acting like you know me?
stop jumping to stupid conclusions and
assuming. you arent always right.

2008-08-22T05:58:00.000-07:00

·#Siaккy X__= ·# says:
u nvr update lor
·#Siaккy X__= ·# says:
slacker

finefineeeeee im here.
i dont know what to blog about.
about guides? i enjoyed guides today (:
PT and card making lol.
i enjoyed PT better.
(:

haha i got back my results..
not all omg.. horrible..
a1 a2 b3 b4 c5 c6..
argh lolol.

okay i have nothing to post about.
im tired..
nights.

oh ya thanks for buying
gg cookies from meeeee (:
demas jiawen kuanyao
minghui chongyou mr seow
engkiat alfred cheryl
eugene chinboon wenxi sean

2008-08-20T02:17:00.000-07:00

look at kian's face LOL.

haha mr seow calls us the siao zha bors (:

we finally opened our hamper LOL

the one we won from the cheering competition

we didnt open it as we waited for

irna samuel anna and i forgot who

to come back to celebrate together.

anyway we were only given one glass bottle

of sparkling juice, soo we shared it LOL

starting from the first register no.

to the last LOLOL all drinking from the same

mouth of the bottle. okay eeww.

but THATS THE CLASS SPIRIT MAN !

anyway it doesnt taste nice LOL.

woohoo (:

i got back my results.

im extremely pleased with my physics grade :D

i got an A ! hahaha woohoo.

for others, i did quite okay except one subject

i havent got back all my results though.

i want to count and count

til it exceeds the number of fingers

and toes i have hahaa

i want to count til the value is too

large to be keyed in the calculator

i want to count til eternity (:

2008-08-19T04:11:00.000-07:00

today is HONGLIANG'S BIRTHDAY !

haha happy birthday !

CHEY..

i put my legs under the tables.

the kind that you can find in the science labs

in our schools..

i moved my leg and it rubbed against

the underside surface of the table.

then i felt something pricked in my skin.

i felt pain.

i moved my leg out and took a

closer look, a wooden splinter went in

my flesh .. lol .

i started squeezing the sides of the splinter

hoping that it will come out haha.

i complained to anna and as i squeezed

my leg i made quite alot of noise

as it was painful lolol.

anyway anna helped me tell

my bio teacher after class.

then she said

OH NO I DONT KNOW HOW?

WHO IS FROM SJAB?

then i immediately kept quiet and

went back to my seat.

the class hollered SAMUEL -.=

my bio teacher took out the first aid kit

and accidentally dropped the *what you call it*

then samuel said omg now not sterile liao.

alfred went to wash with DISTILLED WATER :o

samuel said cannot LOL.

he advisor la.

anyway alfred came beside me

and tried to help me that out the

wooden splinter using that *what you call it*

from the first aid kit.

then he kiap KIAP WRONGLY LUH

kiapped my flesh LOL..

i kept screaming and shouting throughout.

then alfred asked anna etc to grab my hand

my head my leg my body LOL.

so that i wont squirm

before the * what you call it* landed on my leg

i screamed already HAHAHA :X

anyway my bio teacher helped me

pull it out lol (: thanks.

then the people who crowded round

made lots of comments LOL.

raafiq said

OMG YOU ARE SCREAMING CAUSE

OF A PIECE OF STUPID WOOD?

i started laughing hahaha.

engkiat said

YOU ARE STILL LAUGHING?

YOU SURE PAIN?

lololol ~ its very funny luh hahaha.

saufy said

AYE LET ME SEE EH !

xueyun asked

ARE YOU OKAY

alfred said

DONT MOVE LAA.

VERY FAST ONE LA.

DONT SQUEEZE lolol.

chey so small -.=

2008-08-18T05:05:00.000-07:00

hello ~

common test 2 is over (:

mr jack tan is coming back to Singapore next week.

i dont feel very happy over the fact that its over.

haha i dont know why either.

AHHHHH..

since exams are over and im kind of free

qianni and i decided that we should be good people

for the day (: we decided to wait for SIYING

who was apparently still having

PHYSICS remedial even after examinations

have just ended ah well.

we waited for fully one hour.

i know you are touched siying XD

anyway.. a teacher came into my class

and asked me

YOU ARE FROM M1 RIGHT

HEY DO YOU HAVE so and so's NUMBER?

YEA.. ER BUT WHY DO YOU NEED IT?

ACTUALLY IM A TEACHER IN CHARGED

SO YOU DONT HAVE TO ASK ME JUST GIVE ME

HIS NUMBER..

then i just gave her

hahaha i think she thought that

im kind of rude..

anything.. i just dont feel that its very right

to give someone's number just like that.

as time passed i got hungrier.

argh i lied on the tables in class

then i heard the same booming voice.

then same voice which asked me

for my classmate's number.

AYE YOU THOUGHT THIS IS YOUR BED AH

LIE UNTIL LIKE THAT.

YOU OPEN YOUR LEGS WIDER

LATER OLD MAN COME AND SEE

THEN YOU CHI KUI

THEN YOU HUO GAI.

then qianni who was beside me started

laughing like shit. wth..

the teacher behind the booming voice teacher

also laughed at me ARGH.

we continued waiting.

qianni and i talked about something random

and i said HUH

THEN YOU WANT ME WALK AROUND LIKE THAT !?

then i grabbed my shirt and walked LOL.

i was backfacing the door of my classroom

when ljs walked passed.

i turned around i saw him..

qianni started laughing again..

she said ljs was staring at me earlier.

oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ~

so throw face.

all thanks to siying lol.

2008-08-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

hahah my green hand
drawn by anna (:

lol. yea ~
this is kian ann (:
he was singing BLEEDING LOVE
in his falsetto
it was DAMN HILARIOUS lolol.
yea he is the same person who told me
LOOK AT MY CHARMING FACE
I KNOW WHEN YOU LOOK AT MY FACE
YOUR APPETITE WILL IMPROVE.
sounds familar? yea he is kian ann ~

okay DINNER TIME ~

2008-08-13T06:08:00.000-07:00

hello..

common tests.

had english, social studies,

today, chemistry and literature.

sigh. im so tired.. lol..

i dont feel like blogging.

yet im blogging.

irony.

spiderspiderrrrr..

a big hairy spider

lol according to dionne

crawled onto me.

at the bus stop while

waiting for chinyee to lunch together.

lolol okay not very big la

siying, qianni and dionne

were helping me brush it away

yet they were afriad lol

qianni said its surprising

that i didnt scream. lol.

i was kind of moody

in the afternoon. lol.

ahh talking about spiders.

it reminds me of how

shuyang and i used to sing

itsy winsy spider.

since the first day of school.

and quarrelling about

how the lyrics should be.

haha i remember

what my mother told me

she said when im young

i want to grow old.

and mature soon.

and when im old already

i want to be young and never

grow old.

humans, are funny beings.

at kfc.

i was eating with chinyee

qianni and siying then

my class boys + several P1 boys

were gathering at another table.

then jiawen came over with bobbaye

and jiawen asked me

WHY SAMUEL LIKES CAKE

i heard why samuel likes kate.

i was wondering who was that LOL.

then they said C-A-K-E CAKE.

lolol i said I DONT KNOW? lolol.

they said

CAUSE THERE IS ICING ON TOP -.=

lololol.. siying and qianni kept laughing at me.

nice joke jiawen lol..

i diao-ed him anyway

and the group of boys at the table

were looking over and laughing..

2008-08-09T03:54:00.000-07:00

You’re a falling star,
You’re the get away car.
You’re the line in the sand
when I go too far.
You’re the swimming pool,
on an August day.
And You’re the perfect thing to see.

And you play your card,
but it’s kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me
you know exactly what you do
Baby don’t pretend,
that you don’t know it’s true
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life,
and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you,
You make me sing.
You’re every line,
you’re every word,
you’re everything.

You’re a carousel,
you’re a wishing well,
And you light me up,
when you ring my bell.
You’re a mystery,
you’re from outer space,
You’re every minute of my everyday.

And I can’t believe,
uh that I’m your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way,
ah we’ll see it through,
And you know that’s what our love can do.

And in this crazy life,
and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you,
You make me sing
You’re every line,
you’re every word,
you’re everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, a
nd through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you,
You make me sing.
You’re every line,
you’re every word,
you’re everything.
You’re every song,
and I sing along.
Cause you’re my everything.
yeah, yeah
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Everything by Michael Buble

2008-08-09T02:59:00.000-07:00

notice the blue stockings HAHA
worn by me XD
and alfred's fat hand covered my face ):
and josh and mr seow pushed
my leg up hahaha..

GOT KISSED AND HUGGED !

hahaha dionne hugged me on stage

after we knew the results.

then i cried.. LOL youyi and qiqi

and everyone hugged dionne and i

hahaha saying AWWW.

LOL. so sweet.

then i sat down at the hockey pitch

then brina and jieying pulled me up

and they said CONGRATS !

and kissed me on the cheeks !

LOL horrible. lolol no la.

yeayea jieying i love your kisses XD

then joshua hugged me LOL

then back in class josh opened his

arms again >.<>

hugged again.

then hanjun's turn.

lol.. hug as in..

no body contact kind of hug LOL.

wellwell joshua is leaving for thailand liao

take care all the best

REMEMBER ME ! lololol.

oh man for my craziness, perhaps.

2008-08-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

hahaa hello again.

aye chilli ~~

im a lucky girl (:

i got 2 things

just like you HAHAHA!

one is cc one is lalala (:

if i pass piano i got 3 !

haha okay im crazy..

CHEERING COM

haha yesyes im boring..

blogging about the same thing..

yesterday, before going up stage

we were already very HIGH haha

fancy singing all those

PATRIOTIC songs LOL.

woohoo so fun (:

then we went up stage.

performed. come down.

and continue HIGH-ing haha

running around in the hockey

pitch despite the rain..

and dancing (: haha

danced with jiawen saufy

jianwei hongliang hahah !

crazying laa.

woohoo ~ dancing in the rain (:

then irna came over to join us

she said

i know the results already

you want to know?

DONT WANT !

then the emcee anounced

FOR THE BEST CHEERLEADER..

IT GOES TOO... 3M1 !

dionne and i didnt hear whats at the

front we just heard 3m1 !

hahaha we started screaming

and jumping though LOL.

then qiqi asked us to go to take the prize

HAHAH !

we jumped around..

we didnt know where to take the prize

HAHA so malu...

anyway we saw mr lee !

he said congratualations XD

woohoo and we posed

with the trophy.

anyway when they announced

we got 2nd we all chiong to hockey pitch !

HAHAH ! and took photos (:

and CHEERED !

hahaha the horny cheer.

the *ahh~* cheer (:

this is my last cheering competition.

im actually very lucky (:

1st year.

106, we got into finals

only secondary one class.

205, we got into finals

and top in lower secondary.

despite

"that day our moods were dampened.

cause tiger, told us that he may

want to kick us out of this competition.

but, come to think of it again,

i think this was what motivated us. isn't it? "

- posted on 14/10/07

3m1, we got into finals,

best cheerleaders, 1st runner up

in upper secondary (:

improvement eh

i remembered mr wu said

if we keep going into finals

in lower sec there is a high chance

we wont be able to go

into finals in upper sec

RUBBISH hahahah ! :X

sometimes people are just too proud.

someone came tagging..

as if its a sure win attitude.

its quite obvious you are looking down

at us.. whatever let you laugh.

i felt like laughing when i knew

the news.. sigh. anything.

laugh at us luh..

now we can laugh back

we just dont.

anyway thanks to

longsiang chilli zhicong keith

for wishing us good luck ! (:

WOOPPS !

lolol i told siying

WANT TO SEE WHATS INSIDE?

*holds the red envelop*

WHATS INSIDE?

20 BUCKS POPULAR VOUCHER !

*lolol we giggled :X*

we both know what we were thinking

so *bud*** * lalala.

then junyueh was at the back

he said CONGRATS

hahah i said thank you

he asked VOUCHER FOR?

POPULAR ! lol.

keith said

CAN BUY PHYSICS ASSESSMENT

lolol..

then junyueh said

BUKIT PANGJANG

b****t HIGH SCHOOL

lololol ! :X

okay its meant to be a joke.

no offence XD

anyway im not using the voucher

keeping it as souvenir.

2008-08-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

hello.

worse national day parade in bp..

no marching in..
no march pass..
not really prepared..
compared to last year.

SO much fidgetting..
SO much noise..
SO much distractions..
SO many unneccessary comments..

i really wonder what was their purpose..
making so much noise..
mocking at us..
throwing STONES at us..
wow such civilized behaviour eh.

the attitude i get from
my fellow school mates
its like we are like a joke..
i thought my last year in ndp
will be a very nice and memorable.
well its MEMORABLE.
but not nice at all.

i felt like falling out
or maybe just walk out of the contigent..
but of course i didnt.

anyway on a light note...
CHEERING COMPETITION

i didnt blog much about it..
well well. at first.
we were VERY unprepared.
i mean it.
was on the verge of giving up..

anyway that was the HISTORY ~~
thanks everyone for helping
participating cheering painting tshirts
writing of cheers shaking your butts
turning up late at night to try
to seduce no one in particular lol.

anyway last minute work (:
very good luh la (:
we were the most high class.. i think (:

our actually-supposed-to-be-proper practise
where we practise as a class
was not a proper one
okay la somewhat proper
lol but not
everyone was present.
was LAST NIGHT
6pm - 9pm + ?

people say the process is important..
not the end product.
but i prefer the end product
than the process..

we got best cheerleader
dionne and i (:
and 2nd in upper sec.
i was so happy that i cried.
its worth it
all the hard work
thanks again, everyone.
3m1 (:

We are the three M1 M1 M1 M1 M1 ~

5 6 7 8
We are here to dominate
1 2 3 4
Vivace will rock the floor

XX-X-XXXX-X (x5)
3M1 WE’RE 3M1 WEE (x3)
3M1 WE’RE 3M1 YEAH

Some walk high
Some walk low
But m1’s gonna rock and roll
With a B O O & a G I E
We will boogie down to victory
So we’ll split the V and dot the I
And rock the C T O R Y

Vivace is lively
Vivace is fast
Try come and catch us if you can
Nani nani poo poo
You cannot catch me
HA HA HAHAHA HAHAHAHA M1

We got people from the east
People from the west
Many many different people
That’s why we’re the best

We are just like rojak
made of different things
Once we mix together
We become one thing

I know you like durian
Many sharp sharp things
If you don’t like sharp sharp things
We got round round things

See we got durian
King king of fruits
See we got mangosteen
Queen queen of fruits
ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM
We fly to the east
ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM
We settle on changi
ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM
There got 1 2 3

1 2 3 3 2 1 M1 M1 NUMBER ONE !

Bi bi bibibi bibibibi m1 !

Harmony is F I N E fine
Down the L I N E line
Cause we L O V E one another
More and more each time
Harmony is B E S T best
Among the R E S T rest
For we CARE CARE CARE
For peace and harmony !

Clap your hands and
stamp your feet
we are the morons hard to beat
we number one
we number one PEACE

M1 is like raffles
standing pose so cool
Arms across
stomachs in
buttocks out
don’t we look so cute
I know you are jealous
Don’t you try fake fake
NANI NANI POO POO
YOU CANNOT BE LIKE ME

Bi bi bibibi bibibibi

M1 clap
M1 stomp
M1 zestful and enthu
M1 never number 2
We got talent and we can jazz
Vivace OH YEAH !

YO check it out
Tatatatata OI (x4)
BP where’s the heat
Show that you can rock the beat
Yea bp
Choa chu kang OI
Bukit panjang OI
All the way OI
All we slay OI
If they charge OI
We will barge OI
So we say OI
All the way OI
Yeaaaaaaaa

Hey people look at us
Look at us look at us
Hey people look at us
We are so *ahh*
Hey people look at us
Look at us look at us
Hey people look at us you’re so not.

Woah so seductive
Ah har that’s m1
Woah so macho
Ah har that’s m1
3m1 vivacians see us hit the beats

Har har har har harmony harmony
Har har har har harmony
We’ve got harmony and that’s for you and me
HAR HAR HAR
We’ve got harmony and that’s why we are free
MO MO MO
We’ve got harmony and got loads for you to see
NY NY NY
We’ve got harmony and LIVE IN HARMONY !

We got B-E-A-T-S
Beats beats we’re the best
We are S-W-E-E-T
Sweet sweet aww so sweet
We got P-E-A-C-E
peace peace PEACE BY THE RIVER.

2008-08-02T09:38:00.000-07:00

yay ~

im the jiemei for my cousins wedding
then im required to wear a pink dress.
hahahaaaa. pink. i bought a hot pink one
since my cousin say can. lalala.
cause the light pink one is soo.
wenrouuuuu. haha i dont think
it suits me..

anyway i took M size eh -.=
i wanted to take S de.. but
the top abit too tight.
my mum say later bao -.=
not possible luh. kua zhang..
then no new piece. soo..
no choice, took M.
the price ah, quite reasonable..
84.53 bucks

finally settled on my dress liao
i can shift my attention to other stuff.
1. common tests.
2. cheering competition.
3. campfire souvenir

sigh. i better get to sleep
and hope all these will be over soon.
meanwhile i will work hard..
and i must change my attitude..
she told me already.. about
you wanting to train me..
and that it will be useful

whats the point of working so hard
when everyone's goal is different?
shouldnt we have the same goal?
i dont know why,
i dont feel as passionate
as how i felt towards it before.
maybe im afraid of losing face,
or being the last, thats why
im putting in my minimal effort.
even my mum saw the
sudden change in me.
someone said he will help me.
i trusted that sentence so much
and i thought that i had someone
to rely on, at that moment
i felt really relieved.
yet? words, no actions.
probably he is just tired.
its okay, but what he said hurt me.
perhaps he is right.
and im wrong.
then im really sorry..
i think i should just shut up
cause everything i say,
i will end up regretting.
there is a reason why im not working
hard for it. there is a reason
why im playing around.
there is a reason why im not serious.
im tired. im helpless.
doing it not as well as expected.
struggling.
i know everyone is stressed.
but i just want to rant it here.
its because i dont see a need anymore.
i cant do it alone like how i did it
previously.
i dont know what's becoming of me.

2008-07-31T04:06:00.000-07:00

hello!

HOHO MY VERY OWN MV

lol.. well well.

im stressed, you are stressed.

everyone is stressed lol.

lets see what i have.

cheering com, ndp, common tests

and extra tests..

hahaha everyone has problems.

anyway moving on (:

i was destressing by zi highing..

in the field.. i lied on the field and

began plucking grass and showering

them on myself while sitting down.

then i told kuanyao and jianwei.

HEY I LOOK LIKE IM PAI-ING AN MV RIGHT !

woohoo ~

then i sang

STAND UP FOR SINGAPORE

while i sat down

then kuanyao and jianwei

help to shower me with grass

then i sang..

then kuanyao said

WHY YOU NEVER STAND UP !?

i couldnt stop laughing..

i laid down again.

laughing.

kuanyao continued throwing grass

on me. IM SO LUCKY

THAT HE MISSED MY MOUTH :x

2008-07-27T03:19:00.000-07:00

hello ! lol.

gathering, after so long

aijuan, my cousin treated us

to pizzas and sushi haha

the food was delivered to my

granny's house.

yuwei was there (:

surprisingly (:

it has been a long time since we met.

hahaaaa. as usual.

talked alot (:

updated each other on our lifes.

hahaa i realised she is very lucky eh (:

fortunate couple.

i said wahh

since we last met, alot of things happened.

then she said

ya you talked alot

i was :O >> :l >> :)

hahaaa.

anyway we were enjoying and

entertaining ourself, while we

decorated the pizza LOL.

the sakae pizza was so tini LOL.

we started adding seaweed, and

the thing which dionne calls it

ka zua wings. lol.

it was nice (:

2008-07-27T02:06:00.000-07:00

hello~

friday.

chased home.

i started the sneezing marathon

or sneezathon since literature period.

it was the first period..

our group was presenting and i clicked

the slides, while i clicked kept sneezing..

it didnt stop ):

all the way until the last lesson

of the day, PHYSICS..

mr seow looked at me

and i stared blankly at him.

he asked

are you lack of sleep?

i said

i am sick

he asked me to go home

and NOT go for guides..

wth ~

later you faint during NDP rehearsal how.

THREATENED -.=

haha okay abit too serious

then after class

i asked him a physics question

from my book, he taught me halfway

i flipped to the back for

explanations & answers

then my hand accidentally

knocked onto his hand.

(okay sounds so serial drama -.=)

he said

are you sure you are okay?

your hands are cold.

go home. dont go for guides.

im not going to teach you

you cant absorb now.

then he stole my book.

hugged it tightly infront of his chest.

and walked to the staffroom.

i began crying

( i dont know why.)

then alfred said

dont cry

and patted on my head.

then qiqi said aiyoh

dont cry la go home..

then i said

i dont want to skip guides

cause i have NDP rehearsal

i never skip guides before luh

then dexter said

YOU ARENT SKIPPING GUIDES

YOU ARE SICK !

I GO FIND BRINA !

NAH BRINA IS HERE

TELL HER YOURSELF.

brina came in

and asked me if i can go for guides

i said

im afraid i wont be in

the NDP if i dont go for the rehearsal

then she said

tell me what

post you want

I DONT WANT

I WANT MY PHYSICS BOOK !

then alfred said

OKAY I GO GET FOR YOU !

*walks to the staffroom*

then he yelled from afar

DONT NEED GO THERE LIAO

HE IS COMING.

mr seow carried his blue adidas bag

still clutching tightly to my physics book

and waited for me to pack my bag and go home.

i was reluctant to la.

then he said ******** hor?

i was like ********? what number?

he repeated.

OH MY MUMS NUMBER !

DONT CALL !

-.= thats why i went home..

thanks to mr seow la.

STUBBOORNNNNNNNNNN ~

since mr seow lives near me.

we took a cab and he said

i will throw you at the side of the road

outside your house.. -.=

meanwhile i wont return you for

physics book.

then he said im very stubborn

HE ALSO VERY STUBBORN LUH

hahahahaha ~!

anyway thanks for sending me home.

or rather dumping me at the road side.

2008-07-21T05:37:00.000-07:00

hello.

ahh can you stop going to my blog

during lessons.. whatever..

ONCE IN A PINK MOON (:

today is the only day after

SOOOO long that siying, qianni

and i are FREE ! hence we went for lunch.

hahaha its a rare thing eh (:

im want pink moons to occur more oftenly.

lol (:

CHEMISTRY AND AMATH (:

woohoo chem and amath test OVER !

finally. anyway i got 83 % im happy enough.

LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL

CHARMING FACE !

omggggggg ! im going to have nightmares.

that day after biology kianann was smiling

to me, wide-eyed, board grin

swiped across his face.

that made me laugh for many minutes.

then today, he came to disturb me.

he said, HEY AIXIN LOOK AT

MY BEAUTIFUL CHARMING FACE !

WHEN YOU DRINK SOUP RIGHT

YOU CAN SEE MY HANDSOME FACE

IN YOUR SOUP ! AND IT WILL

CAUSE YOUR APPETITE TO BE BETTER !

AND YOU WILL LICK YOUR SOUP etcetc

siying who was beside me kept

laughing while i was running away.

then he said OMG YOU CANT RESIST

MY BEAUTIFUL FACE

then i shouted OMG ITS SO

NOT BEAUTIFUL CAN

then kian ann saw mr seow

and said OMG AIXIN WENT MAD

CAUSE OF MY FACE !

mr seow said

WHAT YOU MEAN SHE WENT MAD

SHE IS ALREADY MAD !

wow (: thanks har. lol.

when i was eating he sat opposite me

and said

I KNOW YOUR APPETITE

IS IMPROVING

NOW THAT YOU SEE

MY CHARMING FACE

URGH !!!!!

2008-07-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

when i look at you

although this incident has long passed

i still feel disgusted.

well actually i should thank

you for showing me your true colours

and showing me how ugly is

human nature.

its my mistake to judge you

so easily however i didnt expect

you are such a devil

which is a complete contrast

from how i deemed you.

i dont wish to get near to you

cause i dont want to get hurt

again. i look at the way you treat others.

im actually worried for others,

worried that they will fall for your trap

the innocent ones,

without experience, already have.

they deem you as the nice person.

but seriously who knows what you are

thinking deep inside?

pitiful. poor thing.

i hope they wont be like me.

a devil in an angel coat.

2008-07-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

suddenly, i just don't feel like blogging.
lol. i have no idea why.
anyway alot of things happened (:
1 + 6 = 7 hoho ~

AHH !

after jieying and i gave the sec ones
a break from all the basic drills,
we began teasing each other. lol.

while we teased, a fly flew and landed on
my collar. the horny fly ventured its way
down the collar towards the front of my
guides uniform and flew into my shirt !

sadistic jieying was laughing, while i began
pulling my shirt. hahaha. i was making
alot of noise. then jieying said
LATER IT GOES INTO YOUR CLEVAGE !
then we began laughing -.=
i was thinking, i dont have one? lol.

anyway.. the sec ones were very comical
i gave them 5 minutes water break.
after one or two minutes
they came running back ! lol !
good ah ! keep up the good work !

chemistry period

mdm eio went to our class blog
then went to jiawen's then mine.
they were complaining that my blog is very lag.
ITS WORTH THE LAG (;
i mentioned in the previous post that
i could not catch up during lessons
and i mentioned about unable to cope with
chemistry. then my classmates were like
ORH HOR AIXIN NEEDS TUITION !

then mdm eio looked at me
lolol. and said
the questions we did
just now very easy right?
i just kept quiet. LOL.

anyway i understand luh. i think LOL.

im said it before
and im saying it again
i dont know how

you manage to survive.

we were having physics spa.
i was sitting beside anna in the physics lab.
we were required to do a physics experiment
and one of the steps was to poke the need
through the WOODEN cork.

i had trouble doing that ,
i exerted too much force
that the needle went right through the cork
and poked my finger. LOL.
i OW-ed and started giggling while i said
it was painful lol..

anna was like
AIXIN ! WHY ARE YOU SO CARELESS !
i really dont know how you

manage to live until now.
then after the lesson
she kept repeating lolol.

THEN during chemistry spa.
i was burning some solution
i think its alkali with ammonium salt inside.
then it bubbled too violently
and it splashed onto my hand.

then anna was before me
with kaheng and they said
AIXIN ARE YOU OKAY !?
GO WASH YOUR HAND !

i obeyed ): and i hurt ):
then i scolded irna LOL.
EYUH ! YOU ST JOHN NEVER HELP !

STILL LAUGH !
she was laughing cause anna said
i really dont know how you manage to live until now.
then kaheng asked anteseptic cream
from mdm eio while irna tended to me.
irna kept irritating me..
anna continued saying her favourite sentence.

minghui and hongliang kept saying
AIYAH AIXIN ! ARE YOU SAD?
cause *so and so* didnt help you?
you should burn your hand PLOPLY MA!

then *so and so* will come and help.

( ploply means properly, however they chose to

pronounce it that way cause of some reason (: )

wu liao la ! -.=

2008-07-14T01:59:00.001-07:00

sunday

i went to school to take part

in the competition. the one on the mass dance.

lol (: WE WON !

ljs said

we lost

we got a shock

then he didnt say properly.

he continued.

we could have lost,

we only have 700 people

the other schools have 800+ people

BUT ! when they were dancing

halfway, someone fainted.

woohoo~ LOL.

thus, we won ! (:

hahaha we had to retake so many times -.=

just to throw our red caps

and yell BEN XIANG JIAN LI SHI !

hahaha so dumb lol.

i feel so dumb during lessons -.=

i feel that i cant catch up.

biology, chemistry, physics, emath.